Journal: I will change myself...

        If I knew that nobody would judge me, I would pluck up my courage to initiate my learning in street dance. To me, dance is a kind of art. Talking about street dance, the most important element of excellent performance is the feelings that a dancer expresses and spreads around the people who are watching. In addition to the sense of happiness that the dancer is experiencing, the audiences would benefit straightway from the strong emotions that are delivered from the rhythm through dance. Maybe the audiences are not very familiar with the style of street dance that is performed, but they are likely to feel joyful. This feeling which is exchanged naturally between the dancer and the audience is truthful and original. 

       Shyness often made me experience uncomfortable when I was asked to express myself in front of people. Last year, my friend who was one of the b-boys in a dancing crew, Dream Runnerz, invited me to participate in an event that was focused on breaking (a street dance style).  We went to the competition and had a great time. The competition attracted many people to attend because the dancers in that club were well known in Taiwan and their performance is unique. After enjoying the breaking battles, my friend asked me if I would like to become a breaker and learn how to dance on a routine basis. This kind of opportunity was not frequently given to the newcomers and it was nearly impossible to join them without his reference. Surprisingly, I hesitated and did not accept this opportunity although I have been interested in street dance for a long while. I didn’t accept that was caused by my shyness. No matter presenting teamwork or talking about my personal experiences, standing on the stage was indeed a difficult challenge for me. For the reason, if I knew that nobody would judge me, I might have a higher level of confidence to show myself. Because nobody would laugh at me or talk something bad about me, I would concentrate on how to get familiar with and improve the fundamental dance skills, movement, musicality and creativity, rather than worrying about others’ judgments on what I did when practicing. 

        Due to my passion for street dance, I am learning how to overcome the shyness which causes me to lose confidence in the achievement of my dreams. I hope that I have been on the progress toward the establishment of a strong sense of musicality and rhythm. Someday, I would incorporate my feelings into the street dance to develop my style and have the courage to show up my dancing skills in front of people.